Collaborative Video Project! Huh? What?

At this point I am frustrated, anxious, mad, ... it is like every day is short by about 5 hours. 

My team for our Collaborative Video Project, was the team who has members who were not able to attend the initial online meeting. Communication has been very hard, and only a few people responded back to my attempts to reach out. 

I get it! Life, work, school, it all gets in the way of getting things done. I have those issues every day, rolling out of bed at 5AM, taking care of the farm animals, shower, getting to school to teach 100 8th-graders Earth & Space Science, go to IEP meetings or parent conferences, get back home, tend to the farm and the animals again, cook dinner, do school prep work, do my own school assignments, go to bed, get up at 5AM, and do it all over again. 

I initiated the first contact...sounds like a Star Trek movie...but I digress.... There was an initial response of what time frame worked, but it seemed like every one was waiting for me to go from there to take the next step. And I didn't take that step, I thought that the day we seemed all be in line for doing a Hangout, that no one actually initiated a Hangout when I wasn't able to get through to all of our team members; it was as if I was all alone out in cyber space with no one responding to my calls out. 

This is the first time that I am in a group that doesn't "tag team". As in one person starts something, the next one picks up the next chore, and so on...maybe I have been spoiled rotten by my previous collaboration and study teams and partners. 

At this point I am questioning my own success and sanity in this project, not even contemplating my team members in this. 

But I have to use this obstacle as a learning tool. Maybe there are cultural difference at play? Maybe it is my Belgian upbringing: you do what you said you were going to do....if not Mom/Dad/Aunty/Uncle/Mama/Papa will whack you upside your head, sometimes even all of them...I still fear that, even now at my age, and most of them being gone at this point, but it is all in my soul and consciousness. I think this is also the case in the Hawaiian and Samoan cultures. Maybe I should not be trying to lead the project, maybe I should just stand in the shadows and wait for things to develop? But then what if no one picks up the ball? Can I allow myself to fail if my team members don't live up to their promises? 

My whole point is TRANSPARENCY. Yes! By all means pick up the ball and run with it when you can, but also be fair to your team, admit when you can't get things done in the time allotted, admit when/if you get stuck, admit when you won't be able to make a real-time meeting, but at least acknowledge the communication that is going around, respond, be honest! It takes a super-adult to admit that you can do something... And that is OK... we are all human, we just need to leave the super-humans to Hollywood.

Thanks for letting me "vent".